After the storm of bullets, the monster ran back into the fog from where it had come from. The soldiers that had fallen from the ratlines were now what searched for us. After long moments of men shouting they had finally found us because the followed the trail of blood that came from our bodies. But what they saw hurt them inside as well as I was killing me.
They helped me stand and carry your body back to the ship and from there they attached us to their own bodies and everyone carried us back to the safety of the ship. Once we reached the ship the other men saw what the heavy load was and all they could do was hopelessly watch as I carried your dead corpse pass them. No one stopped me, but they did make way for me where ever I went, even the Captain knew that such a friendship would never die and understood the heavy burden of death.
Klopp, Volger, and the other men only followed in silence and even though that wild count was so proud, he wasn't shy of tears that bled down his face. Bovril was also in shock and could make a sound, all he did was sit on my shoulder and it seemed that no one could fight back the sadness that had taken hold over those who loved him.
On the way to the morgue I left a trail of our combined blood, and with it followed the only men more loyal than to anyone in the world. Dr. Barlow was on her way to greet us on our way back from the mission, but what she came across was what she'd feared. She saw that you had died, and the horror of what I appeared to her in. The sorrow and blood was what covered my body and all the Boffin could do was stand to the side in shock as I pasted her by as Volger grabbed her hand and pulled her along.
I saw myself within a reflection and my expression was dead, all emotion was absent but sorrow. Tears intertwined with blood and sweat rolled down my face, cuts and burses colored it too. When we all arrived at the morgue, there were a few men that had already been there and they were preparing a bed for you. They also gathered a few things for me as well, because the Captain said I wouldn't leave your side. And he was right.
I could let you go, no matter what I could not let you go until Volger placed his hand on my shoulder and slightly nodded. I slowly placed your dead body on the bed and as soon as I turned my head to Volger, the world around me became an utter mess and the room began to spin and I collapsed into his arms.
What seemed like hours after I fainted I awoke and shot out of bed and as I did, all the pain the was waiting to flow again had finally made its mark. Yet I still arose from the bed I was in to see you, right there in the bed beside mine. Your body had been cleaned as well as mine, all my wounds were bandaged and yours were too. Even though you were dead, they still took care of you as though you were still with us.
I gather my cloths and pulled a chair beside your bed and held you hand. I gazed upon your face and saw that the color was still there, and it only made it seem that you were asleep. I gave you another kiss, knowing you would not kiss me back. Then the tear broke out and I began to cry by your bedside.
It appeared that I was there for a month or so, and everyday I sat in that chair by your side and Barlow would check on me every day of every hour to make sure that I would do anything drastic. But she saw the same thing over and over; with me by your side holding your hand only wishing it wasn't real.
But then one day she came in to check on my and I had rushed to the sink and thrown up. She thought it was because I wasn't eating or sick, so she began an examination. This went on for about an hour when finally she noticed something rather strange. She placed her warm hand on my lower stomach and then she was dead silent.
I was Pregnant. I wasn't sure how far along I was but we could feel a small bump where something was growing. At this time Volger knocked on the door and quietly came in holding a small try of food, a new paper, and some tea. Once he had closed the door, he saw that something was terrible wrong by the expressions on our faces. He placed the tray down and slowly walked over to us and then asked if what he was thinking was true.
The Doctor dropped her head and nodded slightly. He thought that, how could this get any worse than it already was, and it had. He froze in place, then slowly sat down in the chair that the Boffin had. He didn't ask how or why, just sat there in silence as his eye drifted from mine to her and then to Alek's body.
After a moment he took a deep breath and stood. He said that even though the rightful heir was dead, that honor will be pasted down to his son or daughter who ever my bare the child. But even if there is no chance for the heir to reclaim the throne, we shall claim the castle that we found you at and call that, home. But it came at the greatest cost.
We were to simply, disappear. Later on that week we gather all of our belongings and called the Captain for a important meeting to reveal her secret. Which I thought wouldn't go any we all hoped it would. But no matter we called him to the morgue where we all stood by Alek's side and where all of our belongings were, all the men and I as well and Volger were waiting for the Captain and the Boffin to arrive.
The Captain finally came to our call and had a depressing appearance to his face. We all sat around and told the Captain the truth, about Alek, about me, everything. And we asked if we could simply disappear to the Castle where they had first met.
The Captain couldn't believe what he was told and stood there in silence. Moments later he took a deep breath and told us that we had to leave the ship. He knew that I was the best Airman he ever had, but he couldn't believe that I was a girl. He said that he would escort us to the castle and sign us off as KIA in a Military operation and it was too dangerous to search for the body. He said that I would simply, disappear from the world and I should never show my face at an active military base for they might identify me.
The Captain was in shock to the truth and wasn't sure what to think. He told me that he would see me as the man I had presented myself to him as and not the lying trader that fooled the whole ship. From that point it became public on the ship and the crew wouldn't look at me the same. They saw a man, which was truly a woman and bested them all at what they did.
I was casted out from the crew and the ship. No one could trust me and no one would talk to me. I was but a shell to them and left out to dry. I lost everything, I lost the things that I truly and deeply love all within a short time frame and now it all began to hit me. First you, now the ship and the crew, and now we were to be thrown out into a wasteland of snow and ice because my love for one man was so great. I lost everything.
After about a few months we had slowly made our way to the castle. I was bigger now and everyone knew I was a girl and not only a girl, but a soon to be mother. I was in a deep depression to what was to be, but yet Klopp and the other helped me through everything as a family, Volger was like a father to me and was actually caring. The other men followed and were all gentlemen and caring, they all knew that we were in a depressing state and had lost all that we worked so hard for. But they still found something to fight for.
The castle was still in the same condition we left it in, and the Captain was kind enough to give us some food and a means of transportation to a nearby settlement and or there supplies. I didn't think they would care after all that had happen, but he did.
It seemed like a few moths had passed because I saw myself getting bigger and bigger. Then the day came to when I was giving birth and the baby came out and we didn't hear any crying coming from it. Volger took the baby to a table and tried to see what was wrong and
.The baby was a still birth. The baby was dead. We all could believe that it was true; the baby couldn't have been dead. But there was no sound.
Volger than brought the baby to me and took a seat by my side, and said I'm sorry and then rested his head on the bed. I began to cry frantically trying to save the baby but nothing happened. But then, I felt the baby kick, and begin to move a bit. I pulled the baby in close to my arms to listen for a heartbeat. And there was, it was quiet, and then became louder and louder. Then the baby let out a cry that filed the room.
Volger shot his head up and whispered that it couldn't be, but he was so filled with joy as the others were that the baby lived. Upon later inspection we found it to be a baby boy, and he had your eyes. He was almost like you, in every way. But something terrible happened; the baby got sick and was getting worse and worse by the day. I could have another life that I loved so much die in my arms again, and before the baby stopped crying and died I woke up.
I shot out of bed and clenched my stomach tight and cried for a while and then searched for you and then remembered that you were in your own cabin. So I ran to you, hoping that what happened was really only a dream and it was. That's why I was in the state that I was last night; it was because of the dream and really seeing that you were alive and breathing. Not only that but I could hold you and fell the truth." She finished explaining.
Alek was still sitting there quietly, thinking about her dream and then said. "Deryn, you have some strange dreams I must say. But please remember that no matter what I will always be there by your side no matter what. I will always love you for who you are and I will always be that very man you fell in love with."
Deryn smiled and felt that her heart was about to explode and she wrapped her arms around him and kissed him. And that kiss lasted for a long time before they got back out of bed and then got ready for breakfast. To which they shared together as a loving couple.
But then Alek asked Deryn, "So I have a question?" Deryn paused for a moment and waited for him to ask. "I was wondering if we could have that date that you described to me in your dream and do something like that."
She sat there for a moment and thought about it then finally said, "I don't know, would you somehow forget something in here later on tonight?" Alek smiled and kissed her cheek and then went back to eating.
Later that night they did that very thing they had planned, but who knows where it lead after the meal and wine. But they did share an evening together that they would never forget for the rest of their lives. Or at least until something inconvenient happens and changes their whole lives forever.